01-04-2015

Long time, no talk!

I've been off the wagon since I last updated. My eyes have been giving me issues, so my motivation for weight loss, and blogging in general, have just bottomed out. I was mildly depressed and just unfocused. But, I have decided that I cannot stop living my life the best I can, because of my eyesight. I will do my best.
Before I stopped tracking, I had gotten down to 214lbs, but now I am back to 218.5lbs. I will go down!!

Also, I am working on my organizer. I bought myself a Franklin Covey from Office Max, bought ink, stickers, pens, and have been printing up daily planners, I'm hoping to motivate myself and keep better track of my dog training classes, water intake, laundry, all that good stuff.

Next doctor appointment is on Tuesday, but I haven't had a shot in the last 2 months. Scar tissue has formed in the left eye causing more vision loss. I am doing my best, but small print is extremely difficuly to impossible to read. Handwriting is also very, very frustrating. Faces are mostly blurs and I just feel like I look ridiculous most of them trying to talk to someone and make eye contact. Embarrassing lots of the time, can't read menus. BUT like I said before, and I will try my best to be positive!

Fat Injections? 9/11/14

So I went in for an appointment today. Yet another one that I had to call and ask to come in for changes. My left eye has an area that keeps coming towards the center vision, right on the cusp, and shadows the center of sight.
But, the reason I am blogging about this visit is that my doctor is doing something differnt today. While my injection was taking place, and I could see the medicine entering my eye, I experienced a sensation that was weird. Last time I talked to him, I told him my vision got darker and was like looking through lace.
Today was similar, but I was able to express it as it happened. It got darker, and lingered, as if I had rubbed my eyes too hard. And then faded slowly, like the sensation I experienced before I blacked out once.
He told me he was trying something different with me, and he was giving me "fat injections"
This means that he is giving me just a bigger dise of medicine than usual - instead of the recommended dose. He says it doesn't harm my eye, so we will see if it does any good or not.

08-25-14

I am down 30 lbs from 249 when I started this journey!

So, this week we had a 6th birthday party this week for the youngest niece! That meant cake and sour cream enchiladas that she requested. I did help buy the ingredients for the food, and made a sneaky switch from Sour Cream to Greek Yogurt.  NOBODY KNEW.  I planned ahead and knew what I was getting into at the party, so I was prepared for this.


Today in the meeting they talked about not beating yourself up, forgiving yourself, and learning how to treat yourself like you would your best friend.
That particular part spoke to me, a lot. I wouldn't be that hard on my bestie, why would it be okay to treat myself badly.

8/18/14

Checking in!
I didn't gain or lose this week. So, it could have been better - but it also could have been worse. And I am very much not gonna complain about that. This week, I had 2 Advanced classes graduate, and Jezebel's mom brought Carrot Cake cupcakes with cream cheese centers. YUM. So, how could I turn them down? I ate 3 or 4 out of 24, I gave most of them away so I wouldn't be tempted. Keep that stuff outta the house!! Oh and monday was Cheryls birthday, so I had a cupcake then too. Bah. Oh well lol
Nothing much to report, except that my eye has improved this week from the shot. YAAAAY :)

08/11/14

A few days late, but I remembered at least. Better late than never?

Yay! Back down again. Last week I had buckled down hard, but so far this week has been trouble.

Tuesday I went and had an "emergency" opthomology visit with my Doctor. I've been mostly nervous, because the last 2 visits are the same spot in my good eye, in the upper left area of my vision bothering me. OH, and -this- time I had a weird sensation of looking through lace after the shot was given. It had the tight feeling, or dimming out feeling that I get when I am light headed and about to pass out. It was very unsettling, but the pressure's were normal and he couldn't explain what it was. It disappeared within 5 or so minutes, but man... it was odd. Josh was not happy about that, it just makes him more nervous.

But I have goals for this week. Tomorrow morning I am going to walk the dog, eat a veggie burger lunch, chicken and rice for dinner. I plan on going very first thing in the morning on my walk though, Sam needs a walk just as bad as I do.

8/4/14

This week was not a glorious weigh in. I gained a bit, mostly because for whatever reason, I got too lazy to track anything. I mean, I went 5 days without tracking and gained 2 lbs. WHAT?!?!
So, this week I am actually cracking down hard on myself, and really working on portion control, not eating out as much, and I want to clock in 30 minutes of exercise at least 5 days a week. I went to the grocery store, bought my veggie patties, watermelon, cheeses, chicken... all that good stuff to get my back on track!!
Oh, and tracking!

Something else I found that helps is to spend more time looking at healthy pins on pinterest!

07/21/2014

Yup those are my feet :) Sorry about that, but I was just excited to see the number where it was! I am no at 226lbs from 249lbs. To me, that's just crazy.

I have been ordering myself new shirts in anticipation of my weight loss, today one of them arrived!
Here is what it looks like front and back -

  I freaking love it.

This week was about overcoming my urge to be super snack-y. I've been having to try and get back into good habits, it's just been hard. Nor sure why, probably the vacation, but yeah. Being able to git into my shirt really helps though! I also had ordered some new panties, and I think they might be to big. I had placed the order back before I started, but they arrived today... just by looking, they seem big.  I will have to try and see.
I have a few more shirts that I have waiting for me once I loose more weight. I have a Supernatural one ( or two) A Poison Ivy one, and an Ursula one too. It's badass.