Fat Injections? 9/11/14

So I went in for an appointment today. Yet another one that I had to call and ask to come in for changes. My left eye has an area that keeps coming towards the center vision, right on the cusp, and shadows the center of sight.
But, the reason I am blogging about this visit is that my doctor is doing something differnt today. While my injection was taking place, and I could see the medicine entering my eye, I experienced a sensation that was weird. Last time I talked to him, I told him my vision got darker and was like looking through lace.
Today was similar, but I was able to express it as it happened. It got darker, and lingered, as if I had rubbed my eyes too hard. And then faded slowly, like the sensation I experienced before I blacked out once.
He told me he was trying something different with me, and he was giving me "fat injections"
This means that he is giving me just a bigger dise of medicine than usual - instead of the recommended dose. He says it doesn't harm my eye, so we will see if it does any good or not.

08-25-14

I am down 30 lbs from 249 when I started this journey!

So, this week we had a 6th birthday party this week for the youngest niece! That meant cake and sour cream enchiladas that she requested. I did help buy the ingredients for the food, and made a sneaky switch from Sour Cream to Greek Yogurt.  NOBODY KNEW.  I planned ahead and knew what I was getting into at the party, so I was prepared for this.


Today in the meeting they talked about not beating yourself up, forgiving yourself, and learning how to treat yourself like you would your best friend.
That particular part spoke to me, a lot. I wouldn't be that hard on my bestie, why would it be okay to treat myself badly.

8/18/14

Checking in!
I didn't gain or lose this week. So, it could have been better - but it also could have been worse. And I am very much not gonna complain about that. This week, I had 2 Advanced classes graduate, and Jezebel's mom brought Carrot Cake cupcakes with cream cheese centers. YUM. So, how could I turn them down? I ate 3 or 4 out of 24, I gave most of them away so I wouldn't be tempted. Keep that stuff outta the house!! Oh and monday was Cheryls birthday, so I had a cupcake then too. Bah. Oh well lol
Nothing much to report, except that my eye has improved this week from the shot. YAAAAY :)

08/11/14

A few days late, but I remembered at least. Better late than never?

Yay! Back down again. Last week I had buckled down hard, but so far this week has been trouble.

Tuesday I went and had an "emergency" opthomology visit with my Doctor. I've been mostly nervous, because the last 2 visits are the same spot in my good eye, in the upper left area of my vision bothering me. OH, and -this- time I had a weird sensation of looking through lace after the shot was given. It had the tight feeling, or dimming out feeling that I get when I am light headed and about to pass out. It was very unsettling, but the pressure's were normal and he couldn't explain what it was. It disappeared within 5 or so minutes, but man... it was odd. Josh was not happy about that, it just makes him more nervous.

But I have goals for this week. Tomorrow morning I am going to walk the dog, eat a veggie burger lunch, chicken and rice for dinner. I plan on going very first thing in the morning on my walk though, Sam needs a walk just as bad as I do.

8/4/14

This week was not a glorious weigh in. I gained a bit, mostly because for whatever reason, I got too lazy to track anything. I mean, I went 5 days without tracking and gained 2 lbs. WHAT?!?!
So, this week I am actually cracking down hard on myself, and really working on portion control, not eating out as much, and I want to clock in 30 minutes of exercise at least 5 days a week. I went to the grocery store, bought my veggie patties, watermelon, cheeses, chicken... all that good stuff to get my back on track!!
Oh, and tracking!

Something else I found that helps is to spend more time looking at healthy pins on pinterest!

07/21/2014

Yup those are my feet :) Sorry about that, but I was just excited to see the number where it was! I am no at 226lbs from 249lbs. To me, that's just crazy.

I have been ordering myself new shirts in anticipation of my weight loss, today one of them arrived!
Here is what it looks like front and back -

  I freaking love it.

This week was about overcoming my urge to be super snack-y. I've been having to try and get back into good habits, it's just been hard. Nor sure why, probably the vacation, but yeah. Being able to git into my shirt really helps though! I also had ordered some new panties, and I think they might be to big. I had placed the order back before I started, but they arrived today... just by looking, they seem big.  I will have to try and see.
I have a few more shirts that I have waiting for me once I loose more weight. I have a Supernatural one ( or two) A Poison Ivy one, and an Ursula one too. It's badass.

7/7/2014

Today I'm 228lbs, down 21 lbs from my starting point of 249lbs.

AND I don't have a ride to my WW meeting today. I need to check and see if they have one Thursday I can make it to ( they do! )

But I figured this was my weigh in day, so there we go :) 

I've been eating the heck out of watermelon lately, it's just so good! And the weird part is that I've had much better luck with seedless ones over the seeded, which used to be better! 

Other not weight loss related things :

Work related nonsense - Not sure what's going on with my department. I'm "lead" but I don't get treated as the lead. It's incredibly frustrating, because I'm only treated like I am in charge of it when something is wrong. Other than that, I don't get any sort of curtosy that other leads get. I'm not informed when someone quits my department, and I have no influence over who I would like to see in it. I swear, it's just a load of shit. I only had 3 people. One quit. Then the other had a couple of okay days before she decides to start slacking off,  And then pulled a stunt calling in "sick" for two days, after scheduling a meeting to graduate two dogs, and I had to swoop in and take care of that with no notice. All while being hounded about why my sales are down... 

Personal life : I'm taking medication right now to get my cycle back on track. That's fun. It's making me an emotional bag of crazy. Oh, and I have a vacation with my MIL, SIL, husband, and niece in 4 days. Hopefully things will be good! I just want to go shopping.

7-2-14

Monday's weigh in! 230 lbs! This is down from 249lbs. So, so happy about that!
So, the thing I took away from my meeting this week is to get back up on the horse. Remind yourself of why you started your journey. Step back, and look at the BIG picture. Everyone makes mistakes, but the real winners are those who keep trying.

I found myself inspired this week by The Rock. My husband was showing me Dwayne's indulge day plan, and I really feel like that might be a semi-good thing. Only, working it into maybe once a month or something. Sure, WW allows daily indulgences... but why not work extra hard, and have an extra big reward at the end of the week. Or month?
The thing that sunk in the most is to be completely guilt free, but at the end of the night, get all the tempting indulgences out of the house. Throw it away! Toss it!

6-23-2014

*please excuse any glaring typing errors, my vision is less than stellar today*

Sadly, I had no ride to make it to my WW meeting today  :(

I went ahead and weighed myself at home just to see if my week went as I though, and I was right. No loss, but no significant gain. I was not on my best behavior and had some candy a couple of days in a row, not to mention having eaten out A LOT. I didn't prepare any meals at home what so ever, and I think that is was got me. I found that when I was extremely active in the kitchen making foods, my weight dropped much more than the times when I relied on other people to make my food for me.

I hope I can make a difference this week, to kind of make it up to myself, 

But today I was trying to get in to the doctor today for a hormone check up, and tomorrow I have to go back to the Opthomology department at the hospital. Why, you ask? Because last week I had a my monthly check in with my eye doctor, and he administered a shot to my right eye to maintain stability, and for whatever reason only the resident doctor looked at my eyes through the viewer. My main doctor usually double checks everything, but not that day. Well, on Thursday, I started having trouble seeing with my left eye ( like a dip was forming in words at the top) and as the days have gone by, it has just gotten more pronounced... so I think I will be dropping in for an emergency treatment tomorrow to keep a scar from forming. I only have the one "good" eye right now and I am going to try everything to keep it in as best condition as possible.

Something interesting happened this week. I found out one of my coworkers actually goes to the same clinic I go to, he uses my old doctor! He goes in for a different reason, though. He had a stroke which caused him to go blind, and when the doctors were trying to fix his retinas, they had crossed the central vision with the laser... causing a huge scar. He actually is getting treatment via injection to have the scars reduced. Somehow, the shot he receives "eats" away at the scar tissue. Hopefully, soon he will be able to get off of disabilities to work full time again.

It's interesting how many people you meet with similar issues, that you could have never known about without talking to them.

6-18-2014

Down from 249

Haha, I meant to blog as soon as I got home from my meeting on Monday... but my husband had to get the tail lights fixed, and he thought he would be in and out and done by the time my meeting was over. Yeah, no. I didn't see him for almost 2 hours. Thankfully I was near Chick-fil-a and was able to get my lunch :)
Speaking of, I love the Market Salad they have, minus the blue cheese. YUM. And only 4 points! Unless you add nuts, granola, and dressing. But still, yum!

Anyways, I got my 5% goal sticker! And I got a 5lbs sticker as well! My group never handed me anything to put my bravo stickers on, so I really am not sure what to do with them. What are we supposed to put them on? Google results mentioned a bookmark, but I just put it on my green tracking book.

Interestingly enough, I was comparing my weight loss to things that I see everyday... and since I am a pet trainer in a pet store, I see dog food. Which, comes in a 17lb bag. It's crazy to think about it that way! That's how much has come off!

I've lost a bag of dog food in 6 weeks. Insane.

06-12-14

Down from 249! Yay!

I took this photo on Monday, I'm just slow when it comes to emailing it to myself and then uploading it. Not that it's hard. Just hard to remember to do ;)
Pretty proud of myself. Last weekend I had a cupcake while at work, I allowed myself that, but I also had a healthy lunch of Dijon chicken breasts and brown rice. Can't remember dinner, but I was proud of myself that day. You have to let yourself enjoy food, just not bad foods all the time.
Christmas isn't special if it's Christmas everyday!
Then I had dreams about raiding a bakery that had cinnamon rolls the size of my head, haha! I might have a sugar addiction. But I am aware of it, and it is not going to control me.
Favorite finds lately have been the Extra gum in Cinnamon Roll, and Orbit gum in strawberry. I gave up gum last year, but I found that it helps get me past a craving and to not indulge.

My goal is to get more exercise in this week. I hurt my back last week, and it has just now started to feel better, so hopefully I can do that soon :3
Also, I want to start posting on Mondays after my meeting, so I can be more consistent!

Candyloupe?!?

So I  saw this magical cantaloupe hybrid at the store yesterday, and I poked and sniffed at it, and tried to the best of my ability to pick the very best one.

It was amazing! The perfect cantaloupe. It was sweet and tender, and deliciously juicy. I want more!

6-4-14

So time to update!

This last week I lost .5 lbs !

This last week was tough, my weekly meeting on mondays had been cancelled, and for some reason I feel like that affected my losing streak. I didn't stick to my simple start, and mainly ate out. Which I think was a big no no. So tomorrow I will be doing more simple start meals to get my back in gear.

I did have a meeting this week though. We talked about the strategies coming up for this summer, with yummy summer foods and temptations (ICE CREAM) and how to  deal. I know I have to stay strong, control portions, and eat lower calories  if I do indulge.

I made some amazing chicken last night, throwing some grilled chicken breasts into a pan, adding to big spoonfuls of Greek yogurt to them, some water, and then a couple of dashes of ranch dressing mix on top, and I let that simmer until the liquid was mostly gone. YUM. Served it up with rice, and healthy deliciousness.


Tonight, we had a birthday party for my niece, and we went to Johnny Carino's to celebrate. Holy cow. I pulled out my WW app on my phone to figure out what I wanted to eat, and so many points!! I ordered the Chicken Parmesan, but cut it in half to take home *Lunch for tomorrow!* before I took a bite, and I ordered a side salad and tried to fill up on greens before I started my meal. The hardest part though? Watching everyone eat the yummy bread they put on the table. Man, it smelled so good!


ONE DAY AT A TIME!

5-27-14

Hello!

So Monday was my weigh in day, and so far I have lost 10 lbs since I started Weight Watchers! I am so happy with myself, and I probably could have done better, but I did eat out with my family a few times and indulged in Panda Express :) Plus holiday food over memorial day weekend ;)

But since I knew that I was eating so richly, I went ahead and ate lots of 0 point foods to round out my meal plan. Which, is just tasty anyways so I didn't mind at all.
So just so it's out there, I am at 239lbs today.

 I can do this! 

Weekly update!

So I've been doing the counting points, and so far so good. I had a set back with Josh wanting doughnuts the other day... and yes, I had a doughnut. But was it the end of the world? No. I made adjustments to the rest of the day and nothing horrible happened. I also went to my first meeting, which wasn't like I was expecting it to be. I was expecting to get to know the people there, and to share. Not so much, people didn't really want to say hi to me or anything, just the sponsor. Bleh.

Over the last week I have dropped 5 lbs, which is awesome :) I though I had lost some, but I didn't want to check until today!

A thing that is driving me crazy is people bringing ultra tempting goodies into my kitchen. My mother-in-law brought HUGE muffins from Costco, which if you have yet to see those, they are the size of a grapefruit and are packed with calories. Tasty, tasty calories. I know that this wont go away, but I need to figure out what I can do myself to keep from picking at them. * Though I did forget to move them off the stove, and I accidentally turned on the burner under the package instead of the over. Now my house smells like burned plastic. Ugh*
My mother showed up with a pint of Ben & Jerry's and a bag of cookies too, and just left them here! I told her to take the cookies back, but Josh ate the entire pint himself.
Which, started a hunger for chocolaty ice cream goodness. BUT on my shopping trip, I found some low fat ice cream that weight watchers actually makes, and it's portioned correctly. AND it is very, very yummy.

My biggest thing is sticking to my plan, eating a lot of fruits for snacks, and drinking lots of tea and water.
My goal - To lose 5 more pounds by next week! And to try and exercise at least 3 times before next Friday.

Starting today

So today is the day I took a more controlled grasp over my weight.
I have signed up for Weight Watchers. I have tried sticking to a "diet" and making time for the gym.... well now, I am forking over hard earned money in the name of weight loss. So, hopefully... this gives me a push.
My inspiration? I be a leaner, healthier me. I want to reach my high school body. I want to make sure I don't develop health issues. I want to have stronger joints.

My first meeting is on 5/6 and I am hoping to see some results from this!!

VERY EXCITED!

Hey, a new post and update!

I didn't even realize how long it had been since I posted in here. I knew it had been a while, but not a year!

With my eyes, my right eye has so much scar tissue that I have not had an injection in it for about 6 months now, roughly. We check it every month, but it has remained stable. The vision in it looks resembles a Christmas stocking, with the toe pointing to the right. It is grey, 95% opaque, and has tiny holes of blurriness. Very tiny, not enough to read or see, but I can see distortion through it and sometimes that makes my head hurt. My left eye ( the "good" eye ) has remained somewhat stable, but I still receive Avastin injections every 4-5 weeks to keep it stabilized for the most part.

In December after my injection, I had quite the horrific experience, and let me tell you I don't wish it on anyone. This is not to scare you, of course, but to let you know if it happens to you, do NOT wait it out like I did.

I had everything as routine. I was leaned back in the chair, they put in numbing drops, waited, sterilized, and gave me a Subconjunctival  injection to numb the eye, and let it soak in for a few minutes. Then they came back, more numbing drops, numbing gel, and then they inserted the speculum into my eye to hold back the eyelids. I got my shot, and everything was all numbed up and peachy. It was freezing cold outside, and then the cold air touched my eye, the sight went foggy and weird. Like looking in a fogged up mirror you can't just wipe away. But, THAT wasn't the horrible part.
When I went home, I laid down to rest my eye to see if the "fog" would lift. It did and I dozed. While I slept, the numbness wore of and when I got up and opened my eyes, I was in pain! I thought it might just be the soreness from the shot, but as time passed it didn't do anything but get worse and worse. I wouldn't open my eye without a surge of sharp intense pain! So my hubby was obviously beside himself at this point and had no idea what to do. I told him to call the doctors, and he did. They told him it was just a small scratch if anything and they had him go get intense eye gel for severe dry eyes to use on me. He rushed to the store and I stayed put at home with my eyes closed.

He came back and let me tell you, when I opened my eyes again, I fell over backwards in so much pain. I had to pull my lower eyelid down to try and get that gel in, but it did NOT help. I had to use ice packs wrapped in towels to ease pain, and by this point, when we called ( meaning he called ) the doctors again, they had closed and the on duty physician was no help, and I knew that the ER wouldn't help either. All they would do is dig around in my eye and cause me more pain...
So I "slept" on the couch with my ice packs and as soon as the Ophthalmologist  was open I was making my eye in to see my doctors. Of course, they had to make me open my eye when I was in the screening room, and I ended up screaming a little and sobbing a lot from the pain. The poor nurse apologized and went to get my doctor immediately, who bless him had numbing drops with him and ready to go. The relief I felt from those drops was amazing.

When he inspected my eye, he found that the eye speculum had scraped my eye and created a sort of skin flap, or skin bluster on my eye, and that my eyelid was causing the skin to pull and tear every time I blinked. Lovely, right/. So he got a pair of the daintiest and most delicate tweezers and just tore the flap off. He gave me an antibiotic prescription and a large contact to cover my eye while it healed, and to keep the friction from blinking to a minimal.

All in all, it took 3 days to heal and I could have saved myself a lot of pain if I had just went back in immediately when it started hurting. But I tried to tough it out and ended up in pain for over 15 hours. My doctor said that if I ever experienced pain, just to go in and ask to see my doctor immediately, since the ER wont be able to help and there isn't much OTC products can do for that.


Isn't that a great story?? :P Lesson? DON'T WAIT! And after that, the pain from the shot is like nothing at all.

-Sharon